My Beautiful Life

Deprived

2011-12-19T08:35:00.000-08:00

Why am I still foolishly holding on,
when it seems like I'm only pinning all hopes on the impossibilities.
I dont get it.
I hope you'll care.
Am I so worthless of your care?

Love you like a love song

2011-11-27T01:21:00.000-08:00

Those caring moves of yours never fails to feed nutrients to those little love seeds growing within my heart.

Out you go

2011-11-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

I didn't knew that reading and knowing more about your life could be something so stressful, which fears me so much.
Accumulated sadness and disappointments got into a point where nothing mattered anymore.
I hate you for behaving in such a way.
I can't get it, totally.
Not even a tiny weeny bit gets into my mind.
I dont understand why.
Seriously, I dont.
From the bottom of my heart, I dont want to care anymore.

:(

2011-11-19T19:30:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror,
and I feel so pathetic.
I'm sorry for myself that I can't be the type of girl you're going after,
yet I'm still clinging onto my feelings for you.
Whenever I see you there,
I've got that strong urge to speak to you,
but I'm so afraid that you'll start to notice and it would affect our current status.
Can you imagine myself living in constant fear for the future we would end up having?
You're the reason for my everything.
But, deep down heart,
I know you deserve someone better.

Shattered Pieces

2011-11-18T07:31:00.000-08:00

I'm not good enough for you anymore.
I'm not.
I was so upset and disheartened about the ugly truth that I cried just now.
How embarassing can it be?
On such a beautiful night,
where everyone came to celebrate their Graduation.
There I was,
with a broken heart,
thinking about you.
Whatever it is,
I'm really happy for you.
And, I'll always be there looking over you.

Bring me to the ball, will you?

2011-11-14T14:18:00.000-08:00

This is a place for my sufferings, pain, sadness, happiness.
There's too much to update,
because so many thing occured.
In fact,
I'm quite unhappy.

I had my first virgin opportunity on 11/11/11.
Which was to pierce for my ear holes,
something which I'd yearned a long time ago.
Well, it didn't went that bad afterall.
However, it really hurts to know that I couldn't spend this once in a lifetime opportunity with you.
Many things about you have been running in my mind lately.
I kept on wondering,
pondering,
hoping and thinking of you.
I cant help but reminise about the conversations we used to have.
I have a gut feeling that it meant something special,
but I'm so afraid that due to my believes,
I'd end up finding myself in deciet at the end of the day.
I can't afford this.
I'm really eager to know what's on your mind.
But on the other hand,
I also have my fears if it's a disappointing truth.
What should I do?
I look at so many friends around me,
most of them has savoured a taste of love from their sweetheart.
At least once.
What about me?
None, never once.

Hoping for a miracle.

My needs, my wants

2011-11-10T23:17:00.000-08:00

I've lost hope.
So much,
that's uncountable.
Frankly speaking,
I felt like giving up when I was in the midst of the Chinese Paper.
I'm really afraid that I'll lose it.
That grade,
it's just so important to me.
Nothing's replacable.
That position,
is far to significant,
that I can't afford to give that up.
Sorry for being such.

Blow my mind

2011-11-10T01:40:00.001-08:00

It just hurts so much to know that the one you love,
the one that you're willing to give up everything for,
the one that changed your prespective of love,
the one which you dreamt of a future with him,
the one has stays at the most special place in your heart always,
bears someone else in his heart.
I didn't knew that love could be so toxic,
till the day I met you.
I couldn't resist having you falling down into my heart, deep.

If I said that I was drowning in the sea,
you'll be seen as my float,
the one that prevents me from drowning.
If I fall sick,
you're the only medicine that can cure me.

Only you've the ability to make me happy,
the ability to make me smile during rainy days.

I understand all these pain.
Because we're all girls, ladies.
All we want is just to be with the one we truly love,
find One Genuine Love of ours.
I emphatise with how you feel.
We know it all, it's just that we dont express it out,
fearful that the relationship between the both of you might sour.
Also, we need to have that courage to make our feelings known.
Sometimes, these are not just the guy's 'job'.
Winning a guy's heart might also depend on a girl.
It's always hard to earn, but easy to lose.
This is life.

Dreams&Reality

2011-11-07T21:51:00.000-08:00

Looks like shes's the one you love,
not me.
This is my fate as a women.

Is that me?

2011-11-02T03:00:00.000-07:00

I want to believe that I'm just the one whom you're referring to,
the one who enhance the flavours of your life,
the one who has the ability to make you smile during rainy days,
the one who gives you extra motivation to carry on,
the one who'll always be there,
the one who has a significant place in your heart.
However,
my greatest fear is to find myself in deceit at the end.

Guys

2011-11-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

51 FACTS ABOUT GUYS :)
1. Guys hate sluts.
2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are yo...u doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11. Guys get jealous easily.
12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves.
18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything.
24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
37. Guys don't really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

I found the above from one of the post on Facebook.
I wonder if that's true.
Even if it is,
how true can that be?
Perhaps, I'll be able to find that answer someday?

Unspeakable worries

2011-10-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

I'm done with O Level Maths.
Frankly speaking,
I made quite a number of careless mistakes,
which i'm quite disappointed with.
But well,
the practice all these while isn't altogether useless.
I pray hard that I'll be able to touch an A1 for Maths.
Now, it's time to keep up with Chinese.
The one which i've lost touched all these while.
I must also get an A1 for this,
if not,
it defeats the purpose of retaking this examination once again.

It's just too long,
that i don't even know how to start one now.

Dashed Hopes

2011-10-22T17:27:00.000-07:00

Another day had past.
In other words,
I'm left with 4 more days to prepare for my Maths Paper.
I'm really nervous and I tend to worry every now and then.
But well,
I guess,
the way I drill myself is not altogether useless.
However,
it doesn't means that I cannot further improve it.
I must put in my utmost best and hit my desired goal.
It may be hard,
but that doesn't means that it is impossible. :)
I should keep this fighting spirit in me,
and continue to perform my best,
leading to the Mathematics Paper.

All along,
the fault lies with me,
it was me who was treating it one sidedly.

Doubts

2011-10-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

I really don't know how to react to you.
You make me feel like as if I'm a dumb soul.
But I'll not regret whatever I did,
because,
I would rather look back and tell myself
"I can't believe I did something like that" ,
rather than,
"I wish I'd done this in the past".
You've been in my heart, always.
But what about you?

Devil

2011-10-20T14:54:00.000-07:00

I'm left with one more week,
before I step into the Examination Hall,
for my Mathematics Paper 1.
I really hope that the way I'm practicing,
will enable me to ace for the Paper,
and hit an A1 grade.

I know I'm really bad,
but,
please believe me that I've my reasons for doing so.

The upsetting truth

2011-10-18T23:15:00.000-07:00

This dream really affects me very much,
in a negative way.

I'm disappointed in you,
very.
Stop allowing me to cling onto false hopes!

It's just you

2011-10-15T03:24:00.000-07:00

N Levels are over.
The results are all finalised, I can no longer do anything to it anymore..
I hope that they'll be very satisfying and to maintain that position.
Please..

Anyway, I'm focusing on the 2 O Level subjects which I'm holding on now,
Elementary Mathematics and Chinese.
Yeah, I'm retaking Chinese as I didn't managed to achieve my goal on the paper I sat for on May.
I really hope that the way I'm drilling myself now,
would be effective and fruitful.
I really wish that I'll be able to hit an A1 for these 2 subjects.
So i'll only be left with 5 subjects if I return back for Secondary 5 next year.
I should really stop thinking about the negatives,
and really Jiayou! :)

I really hope that I know what you're thinking about. I need you.

Do you know how much this hurts?

2011-10-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

Perhaps, in your eyes, I'm very irritating?
I don't know what position do I have in your heart..
I hope that this will end soon, but it looks like it'll stay the same for a long time.
Why?
I kept on questioning myself,
will it be different this time?
but, it seems quite apparent that it'll be the same.
I really don't know how to change this..
I'm terribly confused now.

The truth hurts

2011-08-13T19:22:00.000-07:00

I'm back to confide into this place once again.
And yes, yesterday was the submittion for N Level Design&Technology Coursework,
hence I can wash my hands off the cousework like finally,
but i'm still left with the theory paper.
Well, perhaps this calls for celebration,
but I couldn't feel the happiness.

Lately, I've been thinking,
thinking alot,
seeing alot as well.
Maybe these thinkings snd seeings drove my emotions wild.
But, I guess,
I'm true.
true enough to say that everyone only cares for themselves.
No one can always be there for you when you're in need.
I feel disappointed, v disappointed.
I hope that you can understand why am I feeling like that,
but no one does.
There isn't really anyone whom I can confide to about it. :(

Anyway, I've already taken all my prelims,
leaving E-Maths Paper 2 to go.
And, as usual, I'm worrying,
worrying that I couldn't maintain the desired position which I'd attained.
:'(

I'll also be recieving back my Chinese O Level results next Thursday.
I already have an impression of how will i react when I recieve them in my hands.
I guess, I'll most probably break down.
But still, I hope not,
I hope that I can get an A1.
Will this wish be fulliled?

After the break,

2011-07-03T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hey there, school has reopened after the June Holidays.
Well, week 1 wasn't really great, successful or fruitful.
I can't really think of any good words to fit into this first week.
N Levels are coming nearer and nearer to me every second.
And every morning when I get up, I know that I'm closer towrds the date of N Level Examinations.

This week itself, I've already had 3 things regarding the National Exams :

Chinese Oral on 30th June

English Oral coming up soon on the 13th this month

D&T Submittion of Artefact, Sketch Book and 3 Presentation Boards in 2 weeks time

Chinese Oral wasn't great, sadly, it was badly done by me. I guess, the problems lies with me. It must have got something to do with myself. I long for an A1. Who doesn't hope wants the best when it comes to things which has connections to their future? Like many, I don't wish to fight a battle without any hope of winning. But why? Why can't I go through this exam without the fear of losing?

If being sad for a lifetime helps by bringing a minute of joy, I'm willing to be sad and change it for my results, a beautiful result slip which has all distinction grades.

Speaking about D&T, out of the 3 which I've to submit, I've even yet to complete a single one. And the deadline is like, next week. Tell me, what should I do? By now, I should have completed my artefact, but i've not. It seems to be an endless job to me but I know that the problem lies in me. I'm the only factor which causes me not to complete on time. Why when others can do it, I see ne reason why I can't.

I know, it's pointless ranting all those fusrations I've in my heart over here. Like what people say, "what has happen, has already happen. The only thing which you can do is to do something else to salvage the unfavourable things which has happened." But does it really helps? I guess it's only me who isn't working hard when everyone is. It just seems like a race has started, everyone is rushing towards the finishing line and yet I'm still lazily strolling behind with a heck-care attitude and then blame and say that I need time. I don't hold it against anyone, but myself..

Fate

2011-06-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

It was said that 'Each person you meet; comes into your life either for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime.'
I often wonder what was our fate?
What was my purpose of meeting you?
Somehow, I hoped that you came into my life for a Lifetime purpose.

Reactions

2011-06-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

Decades ago, there lived this family of 3 in Indonesia.
One day, Dad was overseas for work attachment leaving Son behind in his Mummy's care.
However, a mishap happened. A garden near their house was caught on fire and unfortunately, the boy was near that area and was burned alive. When Mummy found out, it was already too late, she could do nothing but only see her son being burned alive. She felt so helpless and she had no one to look up to for help. Not even Daddy for she was afraid that he would blame her for not taking good care of their dear son. But, when daddy came home, guess what he said to her?
He told Mummy this 'Dear, ILoveYou.'

If only everyone could react to things with an open heart, this world would definately be a better place to live in.

A better world

2011-06-07T08:23:00.000-07:00

When one talks about morale responsibility, it involves the responsibility of one's life.
Such as, the mindset we have are responsible for our actions. So does the way we speak that affect ones' feelings come into consideration? Perhaps, we should consider are humans responsible for the way one feels? Or it's just up to how one thinks that affect the way they feel? To me, I strongly feel that the way one expresses his/her thoughts or the way they speak has a very big role to play in ones feelings. However, no one could be blamed for. In this world, no everything has only a stand. There're certain things which has 2 stands; right or wrong, there isn't a fixed answer for it.

The way that one carries his or herself be it actions or speech causes people to have different views of that person which in turn results in how the person feels. But is that the person's fault? It isn't exactly. Everyone has flaws in their characters which makes them special but I can't deny that it also makes them hated at certain times. I personally feel that there're certain things that cannot be changed for the better or perhaps no better by a big difference. Because, life's short and we might not have enough time to accomplish everything we have in mind. Even if we've the time, would we be happy with our changes? Can we accept it?
Because of all these flaws, it causes many unhappiness between people. They may talk bad behind your backs and causing conflicts and tensions. But was talking bad what the person really wants to do? Do they really feel good? I doubt so. By talking bad, is a way of venting ones' anger out and do we really like to feel angry? However, the person can't be blamed also. We can't possibly expect him/her to keep everything bottled up to him/herself right?

If only everyone can understand and emphatize on both parties, there'll definately be a world filled with more joy and happiness, where people look forward towards another brand new day.

A Brand New Start

2011-06-04T09:35:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling really refreshed and great after reading the book entitled : THiS iS MY STORY.
This is truly a meaningful book with lots to gain and learn from. I've really learned alot from this book and I really admire the author's courage upon sharing her deepest secrets just for ladies to learn from. Reading this story, made me understand that destiny lies within us and we have the right to decide what our future holds. In my life, I've always thought of giving up whenever I face setbacks which made my life unenjoyable, stressful, a life filled with misery most of the time. But I've understand that I'm not going thru this alone by myself, there's always someone, by my side together with me. I must be strong, and I promise myself that I shall live my life positively. Because everything happens for a good reason.
I want to learn to love what I hate, and love what I adore even more. Only in this way, I'll be able to savour the joy of life and lead my life meaningfully and happily.

I have to make a difference,
I want to make a difference,
I must make a difference in my life! (:

It's never too late to start now, because there's always another chance waiting for us ahead:D

Amanda, you can do it!(:

Motivation, please come back again

2011-06-02T01:19:00.000-07:00

"No matter what, presevere because success goes to who preseveres"

I used to tell myself this sentence as a sense of motivation to push me forward in the past. But now, I found out that it doesn't work anymore, esp after seeing my progress in my D&T Artefact.
I started cutting 2 short PVC Tubes before Mid-Year Exams and today continuing after a long break, I'm still at the same 2 Tubes. Seeing how far my mates had progress, I can't help but feel like a failure. I feel so lagged behind. I started earlier than my mates, but now, I'm slower than them. This just shows pure non-efficiency in my work. I guess, I've already troubled and angered my teacher by changing ideas time and time again also being quite stubborn minded. My teachers must have been really angry and disappointed with me. To think that Mr Tan initially wanted to put me in the O Level D&T Group. Thinking back, I feel pity but lucky that I wasn't there. When I can't even cope with N Level, how can I even cope with O Levels?
I must put a stop to this, I must. Tomorrow, when I return home, I must at least complete something new in the D&T workshop and not forgetting that 2 tubes as well.

I hope to find my inspiration back once again. I want to live my life to the fullest potential! :)

2011-05-30T23:27:00.000-07:00

Here I am, feeling nothing but only with regrets.
I hope that I will do well and score well, but it doesn't seems possible now.
When I was reading through those essays, only remorse came into me.
I kept on questioning myself, "Why didn't I start earlier?".
I just hope that I'll score really well for those papers which are yet to be taken and pull up my score for that goal of mine.
I pray hard that my results have reached my goals and i'll not have to retake the paper at the end of the year..

2011-05-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

Will be getting back results tomorrow.
I guess, I won't be really happy after I've gotten back those papers.
I'm really afraid that I will not do well.
Very scared, very scared, ver scared.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:(

2011-05-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

Hey people, the Mid-Year Examinations are finally over.
But well, it's not the end of everything, there's still the results to worry about.
I don't know how will I do this time round..
I hope I'll do well..

2011-05-15T19:32:00.001-07:00

I hope that it isn't too late for all these now..
There was this saying 'Sacrifices have to be made in order for life to move on'.
Apparently, this is pretty true yea?
In life, many can go beyond their own means, sacrifice & work hard just to reach out for what they want to achieve. No doubt that everyone is going under intense stress at every moment, every second because of the stiff competitiveness between the people around us; which results in the unhappiness of our lives.

Sometimes, it's best to keep certain things to yourself. Sometimes, it's also best to walk out of the situation. Sometimes, it's also better to hide your thoughts and emotions. Because only by doing so, things might turn out for the better. It's always better for 1 to go through the pain than 2.

I don't know whether what the others and I are thinking now will come true. But, I hope not.
I pray hard that everything will remain the same like now it was in the past and not the current unhappy, intense situation.

Lastly, I hope that i'll do well in the exams...

2011-01-02T01:39:00.000-08:00

I know that it's a little late to post this now, but I'll still post to keep it as part of memories.
So well, 2010 was a pretty fast year however, it was filled with lots of memories.
This year wasn't a pleasant year for me with lots of challenges coming into my way. I had many problems that I didn't know how to solve. Perhaps, it's because it's my first year in Upper Sec and I wasn't use to the way of life. But nevertheless, as time goes by, I managed to blend into the type of life I should lead in.

Upper Secs' life wasn't great. I didn't enjoy some of my subjects that I'm holding on to. Design&Tech was seriously a nightmare for me, but I must say that i was really lucky that I had really AWESOME GREAT friends, who never fails to be by my side enouraging and motivating me along the way. Obviously, not forgetting my patient teachers who never fail to explain my doubts to me patiently, even after tons of explaination. Without them, my life's totally beyond imagination. Though I struggled along the way, but I was a wonderful great journey because I had my awesome friends & caring teachers:D

Apart from all this, I also participated in CVSS exchange programme with SIP XingGang Sch in China(Suzhou). I was a lucky batch as during that period, there was the Shanghai Expo going on and thus, we had the chance to visit this once in a lifetime event. Through this trip, I've gained many valuable knowledge and got to see many interesting sights. :)

Lastly, I've to thank my family members who are always there for me.:) Thanks for always being there for me.

2010 wasn't a good year but it was also filled with some sweet memories. I hope that 2011 will be a great year for me and everyone else.

I'M BACK!

2010-11-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

Hey people!
Amanda's officially back! :D
It's been long since I last updated.
Well, new blogskin and hopefully, new inspiration for blogging!:)

Time, like a flying machine

2010-10-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

Today was the last day of sch.
Time is just like a quick spinner, which spins so fast.
I remembered that on the last day of last semester, I was over the moon.
As I was going to be on the airplane to attend the China Exchange Programme:)
Was really happy and excited at that night:D :D :D
I hope that I can go there again, it was really a one's in a lifetime experience:)
Honestly speaking, I ain't really feeling very special abut this holidays. I just hope that it would be fun-filled. I can't believe that today's the last day. This years's a fast year, way to fast!

N Levels next year and it's gonna be a stressful year coping with studies and CCA practices. I really hope that I can participate in next's year's SYF Competition. But, on the other hand, I'm also scared that I cannot meet up to laoshi expectations and it's going to be really tough as I ain't a good Dancer who just never get most of my steps Danced up to expectations. Plus next year's workload and assignments, which is another worrying factor.. But, I'll presevere.. But, can I do it?

Anw, today I was late! :( First time! Oh my..
Got back report book just now, will try to work harder next time..

Past Times

2010-10-25T09:03:00.001-07:00

Started the day off with checking marks scripts. Was quite dissapointed as there're certain subjects quite I'm just like 0.5marks away from getting a better grade. But it's already finalised so I think there wouldn't be any changes in the report book:(

Followed by a survey conducted by the National University Of Singapore(NUS). The survey was mainly to know more about family's characteristics and partly on studies and CCAs. After the survey which consists on 10 pages, we was released for a short break then had our Elective Module Field Trip to the Singapore River.

When we reached there, it was drizzling so the instructor decided to head to the URA Centre first and head back to Singapore River when the rain stops. In the URA Centre, there're quite a number of images of Singapore City's Night View, I was really inspipred by the night views of bright lights shining on the city streets. It's just such a nice place to be in.:)

Headed back to the River. Conducted surveys about Singapore at the Merlion and Singapore. My group interviewed 3 different people from different countries: Tyoko(Japan), Netherlands & Hongkong. Was really fun.

Met up with C.JingYee after we was released and went to Compass to walk and cam-wored aroung jes's block:) Photos will be on facebook soon. Do check them out:)

There isn't sch tomorrrow as it's a promotion day. And it's also Jeslin's 15th Birthday:) Will be celebrating with my ababes tomorrow for Jeslin's Birthday & Qian Yi's Belated. Stay tuned for tomorrow's outing details:)

Before I forget, it's Qian Yu's 15th birthday today:)

Happy Brithday Babe!:) Thanks for always being there for me, the moments we share will be kept as memories in my heart:) ILOVEYOU!:D

Mixed

2010-10-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

Gotten back some of my papers today.
Was quite relieved that of all the papers I took back so far, I did pass those papers. Indeed, for some papers I was quite happy. Overall, i'm quite pleased with some of my results, but, nevertheless, I think that there's still a room for improvement.

Apparently, I was also quite dissapointed with certain papers; like Physics and others. Of all, I was the most dissapointed with my Physics results. I scored really low and as a result, my Combined Sciences marks were pulled down which I find it quite a depressing issue. I really don't know that to do for this subject. Perhaps I didn't put in much effort and try hard enough but I think that Physics can't seem to get into my mind. I'll try to work hard towards this subject and score better. Hopefully, it'll be a success.. And the other is that, of all the papers which I cheked through, I found out that there was careless mistakes in most of the papers, which cause me to lose a few marks. I could have scored higher if I had been more careful..

Getting back E-Maths Paper 2, Geography and D&T papers back tomorrow. I hope that I'll do well.

NO

2010-10-20T07:46:00.000-07:00

Getting back some results tomorrow already.
I guess, i won't be really happy after I've gotten back those papers.
I'm really afraid that I'll not do well.
Very scared, very scared, very scared.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It isn't the End

2010-10-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

Hey people, the End Of Year Examinations are finally over.
But well, it's still not the end of everything, there's still the results to worry about.
I don't know how will I fare this time round...
I hope I'll do well..

Raymond,
deep down heart, I know that no matter how hard I try, you'll never be able to fade off.
I may fall in love with someone else one day, but, no matter what, I know that I'd liked you before. Whenever I was feeling down, I tried to imagine that if you were here, how would you encourage me, and it was the words that i thought off that managed to carry me this far. Though I hope to see you again one day, but I know that the chances is only a minority. Should I cling on to them? I don't know... Honestly, I really hate realities! they're just nothing but cruel facts.

September Holidays

2010-09-10T21:13:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps! I'M OFFICIALLY BACK! :D
Just a short update on the September Holidays. I'll just be typing out those main details of the day. See below.:)

Monday: Did Homework with April, Yi Xuan & Jolene.
Tuesday: Went for Extra Lessons at Learning Habitat.
Wednesday: Out with Yi Xuan, Cedric, Cranston & Cheng yi to Wild Wild Wet, followed by cycling and sweet treats at Swensons.
Thrusday: Met up with Qian Yi Babe:)
Friday: Out with Mum.

Yeah, so that's how I spent my break. Didn't spent it nicely on homework and revisions.
School's reopening soon and there comes a new term as well as End-Of-Year Examinations.
There isn't much time left now.

The buildings surrounding my houses are painted with different tones of green. As compared to the previous colour, this new painted colour looks much more plainer than the past. Hmm, it somehow gives me a new feel. :)

Before I forget, since exams are just round the corner, I'll be on hiatus till the exams are over. Time to pull up my socks and buck up. I hope that I can do well.
appear in front of me now, please.

2010-09-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today's the last day of Term 3, which in other words means that the September Holidays are here. It may not be a really good news as after the Holidays, End-Of-Year Examinations would be approaching soon. But if we look at the other angle, it may be good as we do not need to report to school.

Anyway, gotten back my Report Slip today. I've deproved for many subjects. :( For this term, I've been rather lazy, slacking around. I didn't put in my best 101% of effort. So, I've no one to blame but myself. I'll study hard and hopfully, I'll score well for EOY.

Spell

2010-09-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

Today just isn't my day seroiusly!

Got back my Chinese Test on the frist period. And got back my Chemistry Test on the last period. The results was just simply atorcious. I HATE IT! In this year, it's my first time failing my Science Test. :( It's really very saddening. Looking upon how I'm scoring currently, it's very unlikely that I'll even ace. I really feel like giving up, it seems like there isn't any hope somewhere.

Still, that isn't the end of my unlucky day. When I was about to leave school, I found out that I've left my personal file in the class room. Managed to look for the uncle to open the door, was somehow reprimanded by him. When the door was opened, I couldn't find my file under my desk. So I left the classroom. Then, when I reached the canteen, then I recalled that I've left my file under the table with I sat during Chemistry Lesson. Didn't want to get it back anymore as the school's closing soon. I called Annabelle and asked her if she could print a copy of the Chinese Homework for me as it has to be handed in tomorrow and the homework was left in the file. Luckily, she managed to! My saviour! Thanks babe!

Oh yeah, today's Miss Wong's last lesson with our class. I really hope that she can be our teacher once again. She's a really nice teacher. She'll be back next year, confirm! YAY! I'll miss her. And hope to see her soon. Miss Wong, Thank you for your guidance all these while:)

2010-09-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

Just a short post for now.

Today was Teachers Day and thus, there isn't school!:) But I still have lots of assignments on hand and I still owe Miss Tan Compo and Letter Writing which I've yet to complete.

Anyway, met up with Qian Yu @ Compass ouside 7-11. Then headed to have lunch at Macdonalds. Then we went to KFC, Qian Yu did her revision while I did my E-Maths Assignment. I spent hours on it seriously. It was hard but Mr Lim said that this paper is counted as an easy one already. ARGH!!! How? I can't even manage with the easy paper, what about the rest of the papers? What if I happen to flunk my End-Of-Year Papers. that's a very high risk and I do not want for it to turn true, it can be a really scary outcome. At the same time, we also took photos. Many photos, and I had many unglams as well. Haha. It was quite a fruitful as well, I managed to complete the Maths Assignments with 2 unsolved question. :( Hopefully, the answers will come into my mind soon and I'll have the questions solved ASAP.

You know, I hope that you'll appear again.
I hope that I can be with you.

Success!

2010-08-31T07:22:00.000-07:00

YAY!

Started the day off with a 5km walk from CVSS to Farmway(Anchorvale CC). The walk lasted for about an hour or so? Afterthat, gathered back in class till 9.30am. Due to the 5km walk, I managed to skip DNT Lessons for today. Isn't it great? Haha, went off at 9.30am to prepare for Teachers Day Perfromance.

And, Today's Dance was a success!! I was really nervous before the performance. Here, I nust express my gratitude to those from the 2C'09 Dance for their help, support, care and concern all these while.
Without them, there wouldn't be me on stage today.
Seriously, I don't know how should I thank them.
It's the first time this year which I'm working so closely with most of you due to the different classes we're in. And, through the Personal Practices we've daily, I got to get in closer contact with you guys and talk about the problems faced. It's really an honour having to work with you again. Maybe, through all the frequent practices we have, ther may be some unhappiness/misunderstandings which we have with each other. But no matter what, it's the effort we put in for every practice which slowly develops our steps of today. Every moment counts. I know that we've been training really hard, so we deserves today's success! Cheers people! If only we're older by a few years old, maybe we'll be out somewhere now to celebrate our success maybe with liqour! Haha. After all the frequent practices which we had, I cannot deny the fact that I've came to understand more about each and every one of you, and also see everyone's good side of human nature. And lastly, I've came to love you guys deeply!
Today's the last day which we're dancing this Dance dedicated to our teachers. And after the teachers day performance, we may not be able to practice this Dance together again. I promise, the memories, which we had in during this Dance proccess will be kept in my mind always. This was a tiring process, but it's worth the sweat and time. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE! :D

2010-08-30T05:42:00.000-07:00

Today is a very upsetting day.

There was a Chemistry Test just now. All I can say for it that it's going to be a goner for sure. For the first time, when I saw the test paper, I felt like crying while the test is going on. As I did every question, no source of answers came into my mind. Suddenly, I felt that no matter how hard I try to revise, I'll not be able to do well for the class tests and exams. How am I going to do well for the End-Of -Year in this case? I really don't know what to do. I felt so like a failure.

Oh yeah, Teacher's Day Performance is tomorrow. I hope that the Dance will be a successful one, just like last Friday. Hopefully, nothing will go wrong. Oh, there's sure to be butterflies in my stomach tomorrow. It'll be the last time that we'll be dancing this Dance together and afterthat, it's very unlikely, that we'll be so united. I know that everyone has put in lots of effort for this performance, so lets give our best shot tomorrow. Hopefully, nothing will go wrong. Lets pray for it to be a succcess.

You'll be there for me:)

2010-08-26T06:10:00.000-07:00

There's rehersal tomorrow.
Hopefully, it would be a successful one, and not like yesterday. :)
(L)
In the past, I know that I had that feeling but I didn't wanted you to know.
In fact, now if you were to be here, maybe I would still keep you in the dark.
Your personality is what I love about you, your encouraging words, is what i'll keep with me. Always.
I know that given your qualities, you'd have been attached by now, and you'll be a good boyfriend. No matter what, I hope that you'll stay happy and as cheerful as the past. :)

A post for Raymond.

2010-08-23T07:27:00.000-07:00

Under the rainy atmosphere,
I can to recall the times and conversations we had.
Will fate bring us together again?
Can we meet once more?
I miss you,
your gentlemen actions,
your awesomeness,
you're handsome.

2010-08-20T20:33:00.000-07:00

There wasn't Teacher's Day Rehersal today afterall.
It was a split up rehersal. And 2C's Dance will be in the second rehersal, thus, there isn't rehersal today.
It may be a good news, as it means that we'll have more time for practicing the steps.

Here are a few thing with regards to the Dance which I must accomplish by next Tues:

Get the second set of Dance Steps right.
Able to catch up with the speed of the song.

Oh yeah, I had a long phone call chat with Qian Yi Babe just now. We chatted for a long time. I really hope that we can meet up soon, I just have so many things to share with her. I love her to the max. Take care babe, and no matter what happens, I'll be there for you. I may not be able to accompany you, but my heart is always supporting you. :D

2010-08-19T09:47:00.000-07:00

Had 2C Dance Practice today after school.
I'm still not Dancing up to standard. I really don't know what should I do.
Taking the way that I'm dancing currently, it's very unlikely that I'll pass tomorrow's rehersal.
I shall just hope that I'll be able to get all the steps confirmed tomorrow before rehersal starts.
Hopefully everything goes well.

I Believe You

2010-08-18T09:31:00.000-07:00

I've just finished reading a book entitled I Believe You.
It's a short love novel borrowed from Qian Yu, but nevertheless, it's a touching and heartwarming story.
It was quite a sad story. And, I'll strongly recommend it to you guys.
Believe me, it's a worth reading book.
After you've read the first chapter, you'll find out that it's hard for you to take your eyes off that book and you'll be very curious about what happens next.
And if you like love stories, this's the book for you! :)
Open the book, read the details, understand the story and, you'll feel how you're suppose to afterthat.
I mean, the last factor is what it came to me after reading it.
What about you? :)

Qian Yu, I can return you the book tomorrow and thanks:)

Projects

2010-08-17T09:14:00.000-07:00

Had DNT Lessons today.
And yes, the 2 Projects (Ideation and Mechanism) that I've been doing plus the Sketch Book was passed up today.
I was doing the Mechanism Project on the weekends and actually, I found out that I've wasted lots of time on certain parts which can be done using a shorter time.
Yesterday night, I was there rushing and thinking of how should I get it accomplished.
Sad to say, it was a totally fruitless night.
The part which I added into the project couldn't work well or can't even work.
For me, last minute projects never come in to be a success.
Obvoiusly, my Project was a rush-out and needless to say, the result isn't good. :(

Missed

2010-08-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

For a relationship to be a lasting one,

one side must change for the sake of the other party so they'll live in harmony.

But who will one the other party to do all the changes and make all the sacrifices?

Love isn't perfect and I feel that it didn't came in to be perfect.

I wrote once that I believe in true love and hope that it'll happen in me one day.

But I don't think it's posssible, nor will it happen.

I miss you...

2010-08-07T21:17:00.000-07:00

Hey people!
I had an outing with my Babes yesterday.
Met up with Jeslin and Si Qian with QianYi and Jingyee at Compass outside Value Shop.
We got our snacks and took a bus down to AMK Hub.
We wanted to watch The Last Airbender.
So we went to get the tickets.
As it was a new show, the tickets ran out fast.
So, me, Qian Yi and Jing Yee got the 2D tickets while Jeslin and Si Qian got the 3D ones.
After purchasing the tickets, we went on separate ways.
We went to eat, shop and talk. :)
It was super fun.
The movie was simply awesome and after the show ended, I told Jing Yee and Qian Yi that I cried during the show.
Guess why?
(L)
Haha, because, I yawned.
LOL!
Bye people! :)

2010-08-05T17:37:00.000-07:00

Just back from Teacher's Day Rehersal.

Tomorrow would be the official performance.

Feeling somehow quite nervous.

(L)
I know if you were here,
you'll always be there,
even if i don't need any help.

Amanda's HAPPY!

2010-08-03T17:31:00.000-07:00

Good news!

(L)

Today morning, sitting at the courtyard, I was afraid that I would get scoldings for not finishing the Mechanism(Cam) Project.

So, it affect my mood.

Then after greeting, we was told that we was given another week!

I was like super happy and a sense of relieve came upon me immediately.

This feeling's great!

How i wished that I can feel like this everyday.

Haha, a much fantasy!

Hotels

2010-08-02T04:53:00.000-07:00

Just back from today's Elective Module.

It was a trip to Rendezvous Hotel.

I was totally amused when I step into the hotel.

The place looked really classy and newly-renovated.

It just gave me a special feel.

We had a tour around the hotel to know more about it's operating systems and stuffs.

The visit to the Guest Room was the best.

I must say that the beds look really comfortable.

Upon entering into the room, I came to remember about the hotel we stayed in during our trip to China.

(L)

Overhere, Amanda declares that she wants to be a tourist, having the chance to stay in the beautiful hotel room.

The feeling just seems to be so great!:)

Busy days

2010-07-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

Hey there!:)
Been sometime since I posted, so I'm here updating. :)
Well, life has been going on in the same manner.
Have been having 2C Dance Practices, every week on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays.
And, i love it!:)
Haha.
Had Audition today after school.
I really hope that we'll be able to get in:)

(L)

Lately, there's Standardised Test on every Monday for the past few weeks.

For English, I've just passed.

As for Maths and Science, I don't know how did I fare,

but I hope that I'll be able to pass as well.

(L)

Design&Tech's Ideation project is done, now's left with the Mechanisms Project.

(L)

That's all:)

Estacy

2010-07-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

Lessons went on fine today.

Had 2C Dance Practice today after School.

I'm not Dancing up to standard yet.

Practice, practice, practice! :D

Ballet Under The Stars

2010-07-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

Just back from the Dance Concert,

Ballet Under The Stars.

Not a bad one, managed to speak out my troubles to friends.

Jolene, thanks for the chat:)

(L)

Well, today was a long day.

Started off with practice for 2C's Teachers Day Dance Practice at 7am.

Then A-Maths and English Tuition.

Before Chinese Tuition, went to find them to learn more Dance steps.

Did learn, but I'm still way behind.

Gonna Practice more!

After Chinese Tuition was Dance Performance:)

And, there goes my day.

Happiness

2010-07-15T04:06:00.000-07:00

Today's a day filled with different events.

I shall say on the happiest news about today.

Hmm, how shall I start?

(L)

Today afterschool, me and Jing Hui went to look for teacher to ask about the DnT mechanism project.

Afterthat, we was told that we'll only be submitting that project next next week.

Initially, it was supposed to be submitted the coming Tuesday.

And I was quite worried about it.

I mean that i'll still be worried,

but,

at least there's more time for completing it.

Yay!

Best news ever for today!:)

(L)

1/2 a month have passed,

1/2 of the deadline of the game have passed.

What will happen for the remaining time?

Something good? Something bad? Nothing?

Lost in the forest

2010-07-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

I believed in true friends, that they'll always be there.

I thought that you would be there.

But unexpectedly, just has I messaged you, wanting to tell you about what had happened.

I was hoping for something fruitful to happen and that after I tell you about the situation you'll help and give me advises with your smoothing nice encouraging words.

But, it turned out in the opposite way.

Perhaps, oftenly people say that you are your own best friend.

I really don't know how should I be feeling now.

I miss you badly.

2010-07-09T18:33:00.000-07:00

Week 2 have passed! Yay!:)
I don't know why, nowadays, I hate going to school esp when it's the start of the week.
I shouldn't be feeling this, I know.
But I just can't help having the sense of feeling that pulls me back from school.
I just hope that I can take N lvls and O lvls(if possible) soon, and end my secondary school life.
This few days I really don't have the mood to study.
I don't know why.
But, I'll try my best to study hard and put in the best effort.
This year is a fast year.
I know that for the rest of the remaining months in this year is going to be a struggle.
But life is all about challenges right?
Will I be able to take up the challenge?

Xing Gang School's pupils will be coming over for their Twining Programme on the coming Monday.
I wish that I could have a buddy as well.
I miss the trip,
I miss my buddy.

Thanks for creating lovely memories.
It means alot to me.
I'll cherish them:)

Your smile means everything

2010-07-07T07:35:00.001-07:00

I hope that this will be the best of all the rest I can think of.
I hope that this shall be the one that enlightens up your day.
I hope that this will be the one that you'll have a great impression of.
I hope that this will be the one you'll be smiling happily after knowing it.
Because, your smile means everything:)

Smiles are the ones that mean much to others.
It can be the one who can tell others that you can smile but why can't I.
It may also be the one telling others that they must be like you living their life to the fullest potential.
So, (insert name)
SMILE~

Positive!(:

2010-07-07T02:39:00.000-07:00

Coming together is a beginning;

keeping together is progress;

working together is a success.

~Henry Ford~

Will it?

2010-07-06T04:07:00.000-07:00

The game has started?
I remembered it will start this month.
So if after July, nothing happens, it just simply means that it over.
Deep down heart, I really pray that it will happen.
But i'm wondering, if it really happened, how will I respond back to you?
Yes? No? Don't know?
I really can't make up my mind.
Base on the understanding and interaction we once had with each other, I know that the chances are slim.
Maybe I shouldn't carry such a big hope.
I shall leave everything to destiny's arrangement.

I'll be waiting for you.

Memories

2010-06-29T03:51:00.001-07:00

Hey people,

school has already reopened.

(L)

Actually, I wanted to blog on Sunday night as I couldn't turn in,

but,

eventually, I gave up that thought.

Ended up msg-ing with Dear Qian Yi as she couldn't turn in as well.

We chatted from late 10pm till late 11pm.

And obvoiusly, I had problems waking up the next day,

Monday.

(L)

So, apparently, school was alright yesterday.

Had a new time-table for this semester.

Not really much changes in the time-table, but there was some changes in E-Maths & Chemistry.

Design&Technology lessons are still on Tues but it's before recess.

(L)

Today, I found out that there were mistakes in my Design&Tech Ideations.

There was an extention.

And, the Sketch Book would be handed up next Tues.

Had briefing after school.

The Xing Gang School Students will be coming soon.

Among the 30, only 5 will be assign to the Sec 3 classes.

Thus, not every one will have a buddy:(

I miss the China Trip, every part of it.

Replying tags the next time.

What if it's all a fairytale?

2010-06-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

Had strawberry pocky before A-maths & English Tuition.
Then, had Mcflurry before Chinese Tuition.
Haha, sounds quite weird, does it?

Apparently, today's a nice day(;
Things was fine.
I've just finished my Design&Tech Holiday Assignment.
But, I'm not sure if it's right.
Well, I hope it is.

School's reopening!
That's where lessons, Dance Practices all resumes.
Okay, I think that it's time to get ready for all this. (;
Goodnight readers!

Best boyfriend.

You're the one(:

2010-06-25T08:11:00.001-07:00

HEY PEEPS!

Today, I went back to School for Science, as I was having problems with the new chapter.

So, I've to seek help from Miss Tay. (:

(L)

Then went to Compass Point with Adeline and Derek, to meet Annabelle for the China Trip's Project.

Didn't do much.

I must thank Derek for helping to find a empty space for us at Sengkang CC.

Thanks yeah!;D

(L)

School's reopening soon.

The next 2 days of weekend is only all I have before School reopens.

Who's ready for it?

I'm not. ):

(L)

You're the one who gives me the motivation,

the strengh to carry on.

I don't want this type of life

2010-06-23T01:30:00.000-07:00

Had Maths Extra Lessons today morning.

Quite a fruitful one I suppose(:

But, the new topics which I learnt seems to be somehow quite confusing to me.

Met up with Christabel, C.Jing Yee, Joon Cheng & Mrs Anson afterthat.

Mrs Anson treated us Mcdonalds. Yay-ness!(:

Mrs Anson, thanks for the meal(;

I'm facing problems with Design&Tech.

I'm really lost with this subject.

#1: I don't have any more ideas in mind.

#2: I don't know if what I'm doing currently is right or wrong.

#3: My drawing is super duper ugly.

#4: I'm afraid that I'll not be able to finish it before school reopens,

which is the coming Monday.

*screams*

I don't want this type of life,

this type of feeling.

So long as the homeworks aren't cleared,

I'll feel so...

undescribeble.:(

I long for your arms to be around me,
safe & secure always.
But will that day ever come?

If only this was the life everyday

2010-06-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps! (:
It 10 plus at night now.
In another 2 more hours, it'll be a new chapter.
And yet, I spent this day without having any homework accomplished.
Discussed about the China Trip project earlier on.
Had somethings settled about the share of work.

Just now, I only went down to Annabelle's house.
Had a long chat with her.
It's nice talking to her.
Many heartfelt words were voiced out. ;D

This is already the last week of school holidays, and, it's going to be a busy week.
I still have some things undone.
Okay, I'll have to go to my homework now.
Goodnight readers(:

Ending soon

2010-06-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

Hi people!(:

In another 7 more days, school officially opens.

I still have homeworks uncompleted, needless to speak for revisions.

Ideas please come striking in my mind.

Please, please!

Television is spoiled and thus, I didn't watch the TV for the past few days.

It has already been sent for repair-ing.

And, it'll be ready by tomorrow night!(:

How great! ;D

Because, you're the only source of reason.

Fighting for the future

2010-06-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

(11 June 10)

This photo is well-liked by the 4 of us :DD

I know the pictures are very messy but you know it took me a super duper long time to upload the photos. And, I think I did accidentally deleted away some photos.

Ok, so how should I begin my post?

Hmm, okay today I met up with Dear Verlencia.

She helped me with Design&Tech.

Hopefully I've done it in the correct manner. I pray hard that I've.

Thanks Babe! You've been of great help today. Love you forever.

Of course, we did chat about some personal stuffs as well.

It nice talking to her. (:

Currently, I'm facing some problems with the drawing of my idea.

Help me!

And, I pray hard that more ideas will come striking in my mind.

Please, please, please!

Moodless

2010-06-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

I'm kinda moodless now.

I don't feel like doing anything.

But I can't, there's so little time left.

With quite some things to complete.

No matter what,

life still goes on....

Missing you

2010-06-15T22:01:00.000-07:00

Special you

2010-06-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

Hey people! (: It's already the third week of holidays. Don't really have much time left to complete everything. So, it's time to RUSH! :D

Bye people! Picture posting when I've got the pictures. (:

The momemerable times we had

2010-06-11T08:24:00.000-07:00

Today morning, I was greeted my a very good news.
After so much, Jing Yee's mum finally allowed her to went out with us.
And so, today, I went out with Qian Yi, Jeslin & Jing Yee!
Obviously, all of us was in high spirits that Jing Yee managed to join us!

We meet up with Qian Yi outside Whitesands and afterthat, we took a train down to Farrer Park to City Square Mall.
The shopping centre was quiet and new furnished (if I ain't wrong). The place was nice.
Qian Yi and I had lunch at Burger King. The meal was simply delicious. (:
Afterthat, we walked around, but there wasn't much things to shop for.
After visiting different shops, I got a dress from Cotton On (:
Then we went down to Hougang Mall as Jeslin intended to cut and rebond her fringe.
Ended up with jing Yee having her hair cut not Jeslin.

There was this conversation between Jeslin and the Hair Stylist:
JingYee：要剪怎样？那样？
Jeslin to JingYee：你见那样就怪怪了。
Hair Stylist：她剪不会怪，你剪着样就会怪怪了。
Then all of us luaghed.

After Jing Yee's haircut, we took a bus to Compass.
But there wasn't anywhere that we could go to, so we took a train down to AMK Hub w/o Jing Yee as she've to go home earlier.
After walking around, we went for Dinner.
Me and Qian Yi ordered a plate of Hokkien Nocdles each.
But, it ended up being a plte of stir-fried noodles.
And, it tasted really salty.
Then took a bus home with my girls.
I really enjoyed today yeah. (:

I'll do a picture posting when I've got the pictures(:
Stay tuned! (:

2010-06-10T23:57:00.000-07:00

Dearest Friend, I really long for your presence tomorrow.

If that is meant to be a miracle, then Amanda will start to be indulge in miracles.

Your presence is all I longed for, even if it's for a while.

Not only what I want, but also the others.

Because, you're a part of us and without you, we wouldn't be complete.

But still, I know that even if this time we couldn't make it together, we'll definately try to arrange another one.

For our might and strength which flows within us, there might be another chance.

Hope to see you. Good night, sleep tight.

Loves,

Amanda

The greatest regret of my life

2010-06-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

2010-06-05T01:40:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps!
I'M BACK!
Well, the trip was fun-filled!
I really enjoyed my times over there.
I miss shopping over there.
I had my happiest moments of my life over there.
This trip is a momemorable.

To know more about how the trip was,
feel free to visit : http://www.lead.com.sg/LEAD/blog/blog.aspx
I've wrote my reflection about the trip in that site as an individual assignment.
You're welcome to give me your comments(:

My first time on the plane(:

2010-05-27T01:36:00.000-07:00

Today will be the day where we'll be flying off to China.
I'm quite excited. As this is my first time on the plane.
Tonight, it shall be my first time, first experience.
I'm kinda looking forward towards it(:
Well, I do not know later when I'm on the plane how will I feel.
But still, for now, I'M EXCITED! :D

2010-05-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

Have gotten back all my MYE Papers.
What a dissapointment. Didn't do well.
Worse of all, I had an F9 For E-Maths.
I've never ever seen such results in my life, seriously.
But, I'll strive harder.

Demoralized

2010-05-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

Gotten back some results today.
Somehow, I felt quite dissapointed in myself.
I failed E-maths Paper 1 and Social Studies badly.
I feel so demoralized, really.
There's still somemore papers to take back on monday.
I hope that I'll done well for those papers that I've not taken back.

2010-05-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

Getting back some results tomorrow already.
I think that I won't be happy afterthat.
I don't think that I'll do well.
Really very scared, very scared, very scared.
ARGH! ARGH! ARGH!

2010-05-19T19:57:00.000-07:00

Just now, I went out to meet my family: Qian Yi, Jing Yee and Jeslin.

I went to Compass Point to get our lunch and afterthat, went back to Jeslin's block to chat, eat and many others. Shall not ealaborate much.

2010-05-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

Today morning, I was greeted by the warm morning sun rays when I woke up.

Mum kept on waking me up as we've to go to the temple to pray.

After much time passed, I finally woke up.

Had breakfast and off we when down to wait for first aunt.

She sent us there together. We was the first to the temple.

The rest came shortly afterthat.

We offered our prayers and went off.

As we was offering our prayers, I remembered how I cried the last time, the reluctance in my heart that I don't want Grandma to leave. Till now, I still recall back on the times, where she showered me with care, love, cook for me. All the things that she've done for me in the past. I missed those times. I felt like crying as I recalled about those memories.

Afterthat, second Aunt sent us to somewhere to past somthing then we had lunch.

After lunch, we went to see the river at Punggol end. Along the ride in her car, I was captivated by the beautiful sorroundings, the colourful flowers. And also, I really wished that my family owned a car so every weekend, we could travel to different places in the car. How nice!

Afterthat, I went to meet my dear Felicia at Compass Point. We chatted a lot and went to different places. I love going to Kiddy Palace on my own seeing those young children's toys and little lovely clothes. Somehow, I felt that there lives are so stress-free, in a whole that has so much love from their parents. We left Compass at around 5 plus.

Then I went to meet Qian Yi and C.Jing Yee under Jeslin's block. Chatted and send songs. Then went home. Fun day spent!!!

The days after hardships?

2010-05-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hey people, Exams are finally over.
But well, it's still not the end of everything there's still the results to worry about.
Lately, many sad things happened. I couldn't believe it.
Seroiusly, I hate reality. I hate the facts which hurts so much.
I hate this. I guess, I'll further update on the details at a later time.
Stay tuned and take care readers :D

2010-05-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

And Grandma just went off like that...
On 12 May, I recieved a very heart-brokening news, Grandma passed away.
And I've so many papers to carry on still. I seriously didn't have the mood to do so.
I remembered earlier on, upon hearing the band playing those sad songs, me and the rest cried in a corner as we didn't want others to know. Me and Felicia was behind and the boys was at the other corner. WE cried and cried.
Uncle told us that Ah Gong need Ah ma. She has to go and meet him so that he wouldn't feel alone so he has someone to look after him. He neeedaGrandma by his side so we should be happy that she also ended her suffer.
We still teared on the bus.
The worse part was when seeing the fire. All of us cried.
Grandma, rest in peace. No matter where you are, the times we once had will always be kept in my heart and they'll always be alive in my mind. If i did anything wrong in the past, please forgive my wrong doings and continue to dote on me.
I hope that you've met Grandpa and stay together in the world of carefree-ness.

2010-05-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

I miss my Secondary 1 days, where I get to learn Romeo and Juliet.
So loving, so romantic, so touching, so great, that I oftenly wished that I'm a couple like them.

Well, English and Chinese Papers are officially over.
But, there's still more to go and more coming up afterthat. :(
Amanda prays for eveything to be smooth.

Ending here:)

2010-04-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

HAPPY TENTH MONTH CLIQUE SIX! :D

Time really flies, another month had passed.

It seems like i've just posted about the last post when it was Clique Six's ninth month together and today I'm here once again saying that it's the tenth month.

I've already submitted the Design and Tech Sketch Book yesterday. I've not complete the Material List though.

I'm not looking forward towards tomorrow. As there's an A-Maths Class Test on Polynomials and Coordinate Geometry. I hope that I'll be able to attepmt those questions. Seriously, I'm really scared. Besides this, there's also another reason behind. After tomorrow, there's a long weekend ahead as there isn't school on Monday. By right, upon hearing this news, I should be filled with joy but I'm not looking towards it. The reason is because, after the long weekend, when we report back to school on tuesday, the Mid-Year Exams will begin.

ARGH! I"M NOT PREPARED. :'(

The first paper that I'll be sitting for is the English and Chinese Paper 1 which is next Tuesday.

Since the exams are really near near the corner, I'll be on hiatus till the exams are over. It's time to pull up my socks and buck up. I hope that i can do it. Can I?

Goodbye for now readers, love you! (:

Seniors, I'll miss you

2010-04-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

"If only life was a dream..."

Hi readers, it's been sometime since I last had a decent post. Thus, this post might be long or short. As I've been away for sometime, there might be quite a number of things to write and summarize about. It shall be based on my memory, as you know, I might not remember things well. Okay, without any further delay, I shall begin :D

Last week, I was really depressed from friday and over the weekends over the Design&Tech Sketch Book. I was really lost and afraid as it has to be submitted on Tuesday and it holds 70%. I kept on broking down on the weekends and on Monday I cried in school in front of my friends. Sorry dearest. I managed to clear around 10 pages out of the 15 before Tuesday. At last, we was given another week to complete. Thanks teachers :D

I've gotten back some of my Class Test papers. I'm quite satisfised with some of my marks but, in the other hand, I'm also quite dissapointed with most of my marks. This week, there was 3 tests: Geography, Chemistry and Physics. Honestly, I don't have any confidence that I'll be able to pass my class tests. There's just too much to remember and I can't cope with those notes. I wonder how will I score for my tests.

As the exams are near the corner, I'm having extra lessons in the tuition centre. The first lesson started at last Thrusday. Currently, I'm loving those lessons to the bits. Lessons totally rocks!

Finally, today was the day of the speech day performance. And, after this perfromance, the Sec 4 Seniors would be stepping down already. There'll only be those Sec 3s to help. Today is a sad day. I felt like crying as I saw those Seniors walking out of the AVA room. Those funny moments suddenly came into my mind. Without those Seniors, I guess those days of Dane Practices would be fun at all. Seniors, thank you for all those lovely memories, I'll cherish them and I'll remember what you say to us. I'll attend Dance Practices not for the CCA points but for the fact that I've a passion in Dance. I'll continue to strive hard in Dance and try my best to learn steps faster. I'll miss you.

2010-04-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

Seriously,
I hate this world,
I want to leave this place.
:'( :'(

I love you

2010-04-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

Hi people! I'm back(:
Well, this shall just be a brief post.

I fall sick on sunday and was given a 3 days mc. Readers, don't fall sick. The feeling isn't great at all. I felt really uncomfortable and tired easily. And, I hate the taste of medicine very much. I feel like vomiting out afterI drink them down. During those 3 days, I really missed lots od things such as CCA, fun with friends and homework. I'm losing out already, I can't cope. I want to give up already, but this is just the start only. How will I preserve till the end? I don't think I can do so anymore. :( In the past, I always had the strengh in me but now, I don't have that anymore. Perhaps, I should go and surf for useful encouraging codes to lighten my mood and remind myself not to just stop halfway. But can I do it? Will that team spirit stay long with me?

Back to today. Generally, today was alright. Hmm, a great news lighten up my day today morning when Jing Yee told me that maybe we'll be meeting up with family later on after sports carnival.
After school, had our sport carnival but due to the bad weather, we stayed in the school hall instead and there were plans for us. Watched a video and there were also activities. After those, we was dismissed from school.
Headed to meet up with my family! I really miss them very much. It has been long since I meet them already. The most recent outing we had was during the March Holidays. I'll never forget those outings we had before. We chatted about quite some stuffs about school and studies. Most probably, we'll be meeting after the Mid-Year Exams, it'll be arranged again. And, I'm really looking forward towards it. Meet up soon loves meanwhile, take care.

Loving and missing you. (:

Happy 9 months

2010-03-29T18:02:00.000-07:00

Whenever I think of dots or circular shapes, I'll think of you.

Whenever I look at the nicely wrap wraping paper on the box at the side of my room, I'll remember that we stayed back together till 6 plus going to seven doing our History Game Project last year, the times we spent spraying on the cardboard and the fun we had screaming around the void deck.

Whenever I think of funny actions syaing funny words and see people with steady character, it remembers me of Yue Ling.

Whenever I see people with cute actions and board lovely smiles, or the word Heart to Heart talk, it reminds me of Annabelle.

Whenever I see colour paper, or see people with awesome art work, I think of Bing Bing and remember of the beautiful comic book she done for me, which I laugh really hard when I look at it. It's nice!

Whenever I see people studying together or bubble tea straws, It reminds me of Qian Yu. The times we spent last year studying for Mid-Year and after drinking her bubble tea, she would use the straw and blow the wind directly at my face. Always, she laughs for my funny facial expression.

Whenever, I think of Project work or hearing people syaing the word 'the' in a funny slang, I think of Chanel and I'll always feel like laughing out loud.

With money, we can afford many things but there are just somethings that we could not, just like the memories we shared. We may not look like a Clique anymore, we have deleted the blog we had, our love for each other may be fading. But no matter what happens, we'll always be Clique Six in my heart and I'll love you always just like the past.

Happy nine month, Clique Six.

Project Love Can

2010-03-27T17:53:00.000-07:00

Hi people:D

Today was Project Love Can.

Well, it was fun. Gathered in school at 8 but was little late luckily, nothing started yet.

Briefing was given and then we formed our groups.

Dancers were assigned 2 blocks to do as we had less people, I guess.

Formed a group with my dearest dancers: Yi Xuan, Annabelle and Jolene.

As we had 4 people in our group, we had to do 6 floors. We started off with Block 244.

There were many things to collect. Some residents were really good.

After completing Block 244, had a rest and did Block 245.

For this block, there wasn't much things, in fact very little. Throughout the five floors I done with my dearest girls, there was only 2 things.

But still, this Project Love Can activity was fun, I would do this again if I had the chance :D:D

I promise to love you always.

2010-03-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

"Will we be able to admire this lovely bridge one day?"

HI people!

School has officially reopened:( Sad news and the first week of term 2 is already over.

Well, life has been tiring and stressful. Honestly, I'm not really ready for school but still I've to pay attention if not, I'll not be able to cope. I felt that, I'm not really prepared for this year, esp in English. I can't accept it. I don't have that positive mindset and discipline in me to study hard. I really don't know that should I do. Can anyone tell me? I don't think I'll be able to complete and preserve till the end. What should I do? *screams*

I hope that we could be able to share a love that belongs to us.

Outing with girlfriends

2010-03-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps!
My boring holidays! There weren't any outings as I've many events on and completing of homework. Till now, my homeworks aren't all completed yet :(
Hmm, after so many days of staying at home, finally there's an outing with my dearest friends :D
Yesterday, we was discussing on where should we go. But, Qian Yi might not be able to make it as she was quite busy. Afterthat, we decided to meet up and study instead, but the problem is where should we go. We decided to go around Pasir Ris as it would be convenient for Qian Yi. Then there was some places that we thought of,Void Deck and Library.
Till this morning, things were still unconfirmed. Jing yee called Qian yi to discuss about the venue. Afterwhich, they decided to go Qian yi's place instead and study in her study room. Things went on successfully. We meet Qian yi at the nearest bus-stop of her house and she brought us up.

Her house was nice, beautiful. It was very spacious. I wished that it was my house instead. Haha. Her study table was big and so was the study room. Her computer was placed near the window. I always wished that my computer was also placed near the window as whenever I use it, I'll be able to admire the beautiful senery. There're 2 switches in her room, one is for the fan, and the other is for the lights. How nice and unique ;D Okay, I think that I'm far too carried away by that. Don't mind me.

As mention, wer planned to revise and do our homwork together. But, we ended up having lots of fun! We chatted about many stuffs, but we still did do our homework okays! Somehow, I think that time really passed fast over there. We left at around 6 almost 7. I left her house reluctantly. Luckily we meet today, I really missed them vey much. I wished that we will be able to meet up soon. :D:D

Short update

2010-03-15T09:23:00.000-07:00

Hi the holidays have finally arrived:)
Hmm, but I don't think that it'll seem like a holiday afterall as there're many events coming up and also assignments waiting for me to complete. And, perhaps also some revision is needed to be done. I think that I've to really buck up on my studies also.

Oh yeah, another thing, I've already updated on the various dates in the past when I was away. Hmm, not many postes afterall only 3 throughout my days of MIA. As you know, I don't really have good memory and those updates are based on the activities and events I have.

Secondary 3 Adventure Camp

2010-03-12T20:27:00.000-08:00

Back from the Sec 3 Adventure Camp!
Haha, well aftyerall, it's not so scary and it's fun:)
I've been rather silly having the mindset of not going.

I did try the high elements. Well, but only 2. I was pretty scared of the high but still, I got down safely:D When it was my turn I asked the instructor whether can I not play. But me that I must try and it's once in a lifetime. I almost cried when I got up as it was really high to me and my legs kept trembling.

At the first day of the camp, we played this game called Kidnap at night. The game took up a couple of hours and it was obviously fun:) When the game ended, my instuctor told us about some things she faced in the past. before she ended her story, she told us:" In life, there's no right or wrong choice, but it is whether can you accept the fact when the problem happens. Don't
give up because, failures are part of life, everyone will face failures through their journey of life."
The Chief Joel gave a debrief. He told us many people after they made their decision, do they have the discipline in them to continue and preserve for their decision made. It really made me reflect in myself. I'll remember these sentence of thiers in my heart as I continue the path of my journey.

Second night, we had campfire. It's was cool. 3D was one of the last class to perform. But, I still enjoy and love our performance. Chief Joel could Dance! And, he was cool! Before the campfire ended, Chief Charles told us about his story when he was young. His story was very inspiring. :D

Headed back to school at Day 3. Took back our results slips. I had many border line passes:(. I'll try my very best to concentrate and work hared as days goes on. Hopefully, I'll be able to keep the discipine in myself. Can I?

Give me the power:(

2010-03-09T20:12:00.000-08:00

"Give me the power"

I kinda love the picture above. Whenever I look at this picture, I would feel very relaxed. This place is at Sydney and the picture is the Sydney Skyline at night. I wished that I coulsd be over there admiring this view right now with my love.

Tomorrow, will be the 3D2N Sec 3 Adventure Camp. I really very scared esp the high element games. I don't want to go.. But still, it's impossible. Would like to express my special thanks to:

Qian Yu
Yi Xuan
Cedric
Cheng Yi

For telling me some details of the camp getting me ready for it and also for their encouragement and comfort. Deep down in my heart, I thank you all.

Dreams are noble for what love exists

2010-03-03T19:47:00.000-08:00

Just a short updtae:)
Well, for the yesterday and today, things are really relaxing and fun fun fun!
Secondary 3 NA pupils had a trip to ITE Collage East. The trip was pleasant.

2 March (Day1):
We reached the place at 8 plus and setttled ourselves down at the amphitheatre. The school looks really big and very new. We had some activities after that before we had lunch.

Presentation on ITE Education
Refreshment Break
College Tour
Video Screening

During the College Tour, we was introduced to more of the ITE Courses. Hmm, I think that the courses are not bad. There's: Nursing, Beauty and Spa Therapy and Hairstylist and Design. Among all, I love the Beauty and Spa Therapy Course the most.

After lunch, we got back to our activities again.

Project Work
Refreshment Break
Project Work and Debrief

The project work was fun and interesting as it was hands-on work and thus, enabled us to experience the courses.

3 March(Day2):

Had the following activities:

CCA Activity
Refreshment Break
Project Preparation
Race Carnival & Debrief
E-Survey

Day 2 wasn't as fun as Day 1 was but still, I did enjoyed myself and I think that it's a fruitful trip afterall. :D Initially, i was pretty scared of the CCA Activity as it involves heights and was really reluctant to go as I was afraid. But in the end, things turned out pretty fine. GOODJOB! (: I leave the school with a little reluctant, but afterall, it's already the end of the trip and what's more, it was a fruitful one:)

The days I spent without you.

2010-02-26T17:26:00.000-08:00

Morning! It's indeed been a long time since I blogged, the last time I blog was around 13 days ago. Firstly, I apologize for the lack of updates. Secondly, I'll post about what happened these 13 days so this may be a long post or it may be a short post based on my memory.

15 Feb(Monday):

I can't really remember what happened already. If I'm not wrong, I stayed at home and did my homework. Next day please..

16 Feb(Tuesday):

Happy 15 Birthday To YUELING!

May all your wishes come true and stay happy always:)

17 Feb(Wednesday):

Reported back to school. Found out about some blogger information from Lixia. :) Lessons as per normal. Initially, there was supposed to be a Goeg test but luckily, it was pushed back.

18 Feb(Thrusday):

Stayed back after school to get some clarifications done for DnT. Can't really remember what happened.

19 Feb(Friday):

Had Dance Practices. After which, we haeded to Rivervale Mall. Had something, chatted, shopped around and Home sweet home at around 6 plus.

20/21 Feb(Saturday and Sunday):
Had tuition lessons. Didn't went anywhere afterall. Was rushing through the DnT homework as there was really a lot. I was very worried for that.

22 Feb(Monday):

Went straight home after school. After lunch, started with DnT. Then met up with YueLing. Grace, Jolene and jing yee was there too. Accompanied them to the bus-stop then went of with Yue Ling. We find a place settled ourselves down then chatted. Went home after a while. Continued with DnT before it was finally done.:) But I'm not really sure if I did it correctly. Well, I hope I did.

23 Feb(Tuesday):

Went to school quite early to get the interview and conclusion done (DnT). Qian Yu showed me her wallet with a picture we took inside the she asked me if I was touched. Yes I was:) Get some of the interview done before going to the court yard. Stayed back during recesss to get the rest done. Handed in our DnT sketch books up to the teachers. Special thanks to Yi Xuan and Yue Ling for helping me to print the pictures needed for dnt. Thank you very much:)

And also, Happy Birthday To Yi Xuan, Boyfriend :)We've known each other since Primary 2. Though we didn't really comunicate with each other in the past, but at least now we did. I hoped that you did enjoyed the surprise party that was planned for you and also sorry for keeping you in the dark and didn't let you know about it. But it's because it was meant to be a surprise. I hope that you enjoyed your day and wishing you success in whatever you do. :) Thank you for the photo and sweets.

24 Feb(Thrus):

Headed home after school. Then met up with Jing Yee and went over to Jeslin's house ended up chatting afterall. Then I went to Yi Xuan's house at around 4 plus to help her with her DnT we also chatted something happened in between, but the truth's out. So Yi Xuan, we can stop thinking about it already:)

25 Feb(Fri):

Had Dance Practices. Afterwards, was the same pattern. Me and Yi Xuan headed to Rivervale Mall. Eat KFC and then we shopped around. It was fun afterall.

DEDICATED TO Yi Xuan:

Yi Xuan, I know that you've been going through tremendous stress ever since this year. And I know that at times, I wasn't there for you and not understanding how you feel. Sincerly, I'm sorry about that. I thank you for always being there for me. You must be strong, beacuse there's still a long way ahead of you. I know that I ca't really help you in studies but there'll alwyas be a way out. I'll try my best to help you and chat with you okay? Perharps, life isn't that great for you this year but this is a process that everyone has to go through, but maybe, we go through it in different ways. In life, there're many hurdles to go through, and now you facing one of them. You must be strong, we'll always be there for you. You can call me or sms me anytime, I'll be there. All the best. Love you always.

With love,

Your girlfriend:D

2010-02-14T03:07:00.000-08:00

Hi peeps!
Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day is today.
Hmmm, in the previous post I forgotten to mention about the gifts from my dearest friends, there were sweets & chocolate and cards. Well, I apperciate them:) and Thanks a lot.

Had reunion dinner yesterday at grandmother's place. I enjoy the food, and I'm very happy to see all my cousins again. For me, I find that the dinner was alright, the food was awesome and delicious. I recieved several chinese new day messages and blessings also sweet valentines day message. Some were pretty meaningful, which made me reading and reading it repeatedly. I'm currently at grandmother's place now. I've finished my dinner for quite sometime but I'm still feeling quite full. I feel a little uncomfortable now, my throat hurts:( shoulld have drink more water yesterday. Why must I feel this during new year?

Yay! Nobody fighting to use computer:) So great freedom:D

In the next 2 days, school's going to reopen and lessons are going to resume as per normal. And that's when all the nightmare comes. How I wished that things could remain as the same as it is in the past few years, it's not so stressful. But, this can only be a dream that will never be fulilled.

To you:

This valentine's day would be without you.

But next year would be better right?

I'll love you till the end.

2010-02-12T05:20:00.000-08:00

The 6 week of school days just passed.

As weeks goes by, I find that time's really flying fast.

Well, this week's alright, nothing special in particular, school as per normal.
There're 3 tests this week, SS Standardised Test, Science Chemistry Test and Maths Pop Quiz. How will I score?

Well, gotten back my Maths Class Test, results weren't that satisfying:(..

Hmmm, for this week, I wouls say that so far, the most relaxing night that I spent would ve yesterday night. Was writing love letters and preparing gifts. :D

Just now, went out with Jingyee, Qian Yi and Jeslin. We had lunch at Hougang Mall them walk aroung before going over to Jeslin's place. We chatted alot, sharing about our lifes so far. I really did enjoyed myself. We lef Jeslin's place at around 6 plus, and said that we would arrange another day for meeting up during the March Holidays. I hope we can meet up real real soon! :)

Reunion Dinner's tomorrow at Grandmother's house. I'm so looking forward towards it! I can meet my cousins:) But I guess, this year's reunion dinner would be somehow different. Hmm, somhow I felt that this year ther ins't much atmosphere around, I can't feel it. Is it because I no longer carry the same feeling with me anymore?

Heartfelt words:

Somehow, you've been appearing in my mind lately.

Everytime when I remembered about yoou, I would have this undescribable feeling.

I feel like crying,

I don't know why..

Can you tell me the reason why?

Taggs replied:

Jingyee: Thanks for the tag and the concern you give. You let me know that actually there's someone caring for me and letting me know that you're always there. Thanks for all this:) You must also take care of yourself and don't always spare a thought for others only, think of yourself as well.

YueLing: nope, you're wrong.